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OMFG [Apr. 26th, 2006|08:22 am]
[Current Location |School]
[Current Mood | sick]

DUDE!! I haven't written in here for the longest time! Me and Alissa are sposed to be working on our Spanish..but yeah. That's boring. And I don't feel good..Alissa is looking up some sexy lyrics..YEAH BABY! Ok yeah..bye.
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*CALIFORN-I-A* [Jul. 22nd, 2005|03:04 pm]
[Current Mood | dorky]

Well well. I usually don't write in here anymore. The last entry wasn't even something I wrote, like most of you could probly tell. *cough* Karl *cough, cough* Since you know what I capitalize and everything, lmao. idk what to really say but lotsa stuff has happened. We saw a man dressed as a sailor at the grocery store the other day and we looked at him funny n he just goes "Wana ride on my boat?" I was like "Uhh..how big is it" n he was like "Ahahahaaah, 9 inches" It was hilarious.
We went to Disneyland last week n we went on a ton of rides n we got to see Bri n Julia there! I sat next to Bri on Space Mountain n it was hilarious to hear the way she screamed, lol! It was like "Ah..aaah..AAHHHHHHH! Then we begged her to come on Tower of Terror with us n she gave in, and she loved it! It was great. lmao, me n Kim even got to meet the pricesses. N Hercules, but he was a jerk. My dad was like "He was such a fag" n I was like "He was even blowing kisses..what kinda guy blows kisses?" n my dad just goes "A FAG!" n he was talking to my uncle saying "If that Hercules wasn't a fag, then idk who is!" Haha, then on our last night there after Bri n Julia n everyone in their family had to leave, me n Kim were walkin around and there were these guys goin around yellin "Yay Baby Jesus!" lotsa times n then Kim was like "We should yell 'yay Virgin Mary' when they get back!" But we didn't see them anymore.
Then we went to Knotts Berry Farm..a theme park, lol. I thought it was just some berry picking farm, cuz that's what impression my mom gave me. But it was a lota fun. We were next to go on a roller coaster called the X-celerator n then it got shut down for "technical difficulties" so we were pissed, but we waited anyway n it was the best roller coaster off all.
Yesterday, we went to Sea World n we got to see SHAMOO! lol, idk if you guys remember the Shamoo infatuation from like..8th grade I think it was? Either way, it was great. We watched some other gay thing though with these clown lookin things..they were weird n kinda retarted.
Yeah well we're gettin back next Saturday so see you guys all then! :D
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*U.P.S.* [Jun. 30th, 2005|03:24 pm]
[Current Mood | chipper]
[Current Music |50 Cent- Just A Lil Bit]

We chased the ice cream truck! Kimbo, Lissy, and I all ran out of the house chasing the ice cream truck one last time before our departure. It was fun. It was grand. and I loved it. LICK A COLOR! AHHHHHHHHH, IIIIIIICCCCEEEEE CREEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAM! Farewell Waupaca, Wisconsin. I'll be seeing you..LISSY I LOVE YOU! I'LL CALL YOU, I PROMISE! I'll miss all of ya. *kisses*
*SCREAMS* ICE CREEEEEAAAAAAAM! too bad i didn't get to see Alissa's dad in his underwear because that would have made my last day here just wonderful. But I'll get over it. Maybe Lissy will send me a picture.
unbutton your pants just a lil bit!
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(no subject) [Dec. 21st, 2004|04:07 pm]
[Current Mood | grumpy]

Huh..let's see. Pulled an all-nighter last night. It wasn't as bad at school today as I expected it to be, actually. Had some good times, but I think I was too grumpy to notice most of the laughs.
Now I'm home..just got off the phone with Lissy. So what's left to really do? I should get to my homework, get some sleep..but all I can do is sit here and be grumpy..feeling sorry for myself. Not a fun way to waste a night, I know.
I hate relying on ppl to make me happy, so I usually don't. I hate admitting that someone means enough to me that they can hurt me, b/c I've been through that kinda thing already, and it was pointless to no end. So it's hard for me to admit that there's someone I've been falling for since I can remember. It sounds so cheezy and retarted, and just about everyone I talk to says he isn't worth my time. Now, don't get me wrong, b/c I respect ppl looking out for me and all, but no matter how often I hear it, it just doesn't sink in and the only thing that really happens is I like him more and more.
Sounds ok, right? No one else's opinion should count. Well my mind might be in overdrive right now, b/c of loss of sleep, but I'm running everything through my head, and the truth is..I don't even know why I started liking him in the first place, why I keep liking him, and why this whole thing keeps getting bigger and bigger.

Still sitting there with your legs crossed,
not paying attention to me.
If we talk, just curious, would this end up like it always does?
All the wrong I've done.
All the wrong I'll do.
Keeps me from trying.
It keeps me quiet.
Throw out your arms to each side.
It's easier to let things go.
When we talk think what we say: there's questons then silence and
in silence we remain.
All the wrong I've done and all the wrong I'll do.
It keeps me from trying.
Keeps me from calling you.
Something I just found out.
Something you know by now.
Hope makes you so strong.
Strength keeps you alone and far away.
-Jimmy Eat World-

I want everything to be easy again. Just like it used to be. Every time ONE thing goes my way, I think "Ok, this is great! This is all gunna turn out fine" and all that does is get my hopes up and then I get let down even harder for things I shouldn't take so seriously.
*Hope comes from the inside and I feel so low tonight*Anyone can find the same white pills that take my pain away*
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*Gerbling* [Dec. 19th, 2004|06:21 pm]
[Current Mood | quixotic]
[Current Music |Step-dad's Cheering For The Packer Game]

This weekend was fun. Went to my dad's Friday..didn't see a lotta Big C, which is kinda surprising. Me and Liz were babysitting next door to her house and Chris came along with us. He invited Emily there without asking Liz, and we didn't think that Amy wanted a whole buncha ppl there when she got home, so when she got there, Liz asked Chris why she was there. Chris said he invited her, and Liz said that she couldn't be there. All Chris said was "Fine.." and walked out and left with Emily. We didn't really see him the rest of the night. We called him when we got back to Liz's to tell him we were there, but he didn't come.
Saturday morning, Chris drove me to Waupaca, b/c my dad had to work and I had stuff to do in Waupaca. Liz was there too, and Chris's gas tank was almost empty, so he asked me how much gas was in Waupaca. I thought it was $1.89 a gallon, so that's what I told him, but I said if he really needed to know, he could call my mum and ask. Well he did, and at this time, my mum didn't know that Chris was the one driving me home.
Chris: How much is gas in Waupaca?
My mom: Uhh..I think $1.89 a gallon? Why?
Chris: Because my tank is almost empty.
My mom: Well why would you come to Waupaca to fill up yer tank?
Chris: Well I'm on highway 110 now..
lol, my mum figured out that he was giving me a ride home. He filled his tank where gas was $1.77 a gallon and when we went past Fleet Farm in Waupaca, it said $1.76. lol, Chris drove me the rest of the way home and then pulled in my driveway. He was like "I'm gunna call yer mom and inform her that yer home."
Chris: Yer daughter is home now.
My mom: Is that yer car in the driveway?
Chris: Why yes it is. Full tank of gas and all..which, by the way, you were wrong.
My mom: About what?
Chris: It's $1.76 in Waupaca..and where I gassed up, it was $1.77..that's a penny a gallon..that's 12 cents!
It was great, lol. I walked in and my mum was like "You know yer friends are crazy?" My step-dad got home and said that Chris Schmidt called for me. I called him back and we talked for a while but then he had to go. Then Adam called, but I was already planning on going to Tara's party, so I couldn't do anything. Around 7:30, me, Kim, and Lissy went to Tara's party. We sucked in helium, told jokes, and all that good stuff. I think the helium was the best. Lissy couldn't bite a hole in her balloon though, so she asked me to do it, and when I did, it bit too much so it was a big hole, and I was like "Lissy! OMG! It's so huge! Suck it quick!" lol, it was funny.
Me and Kimbo spent the night at Lissy's last night, and we kinda just planned our New Years party, so that's kool. It's gunna be great! But yeah, today, I did Lissy's hair and took a nap. I kinda wanted to go snowboarding with Nick and Kim, but I was too tired, so I didn't ask. Anyway, I gotta lotta hw to do, so I think I'ma get to that..
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°Uppity-Ups!° [Dec. 16th, 2004|09:20 pm]
[Current Mood | flirty]
[Current Music |Amber Pacific- Thoughts Before Me]

Ok, well I know my entry from last night was just a whole lotta babbling about nothing, so here are a few parts I missed out and a little more in depth stories to have this make sense a little more. Thanksgiving: Great holiday..made fun of my step-dad for being whipped by my mum..The Bob Hope thing came back too, thanks to me, lol. What would my family do without me, right? Cait came up here too, and we just kinda hung out with ppl throughout the vacation. Hair dye, pizza, movies, driving around, going to Pick 'N' Save..that's the life! lol ((You guys..it was in the paper that the new entry to Pick 'N' Save is through the parking lot of Culvers..I swear! This is like..a cop route or something..yer breaking the law!)) Little old ladies walking in front of us.. Me: Matt! She doesn't wanna see yer boner! Matt: I'll whip it out and slap her in the face with it! Going to McDonald's, some ppl in front of us going to the drive-through..lol, Matt with his "Fuck no you don't!" driving through the other side of the parking lot like a mad man just to beat them there..flipping carts in Boo's car..*sigh* I miss is already. Last weekend I was at my dad's: Hmm, spent Friday with Liz, Chris, and Emily just cruisin around and goofing off..the usual. Then I went to Cait's mum's house on Saturday. She lives in Neenah. We watched Stepford wives, and I saw this car that looked pimp in the dark. I called my step-dad, and there was a posibility that I coulda gotten it, but I went back to Liz's house on Saturday and Chris said that it was crap, so I trust him. Came home and I don't remember if that was the weekend that Nick came over and we watched Donnie Darkow or not? idk, but that was a pretty good weekend too. The past weekend: This is a fun one! (sarcasm) Lissy was grounded, and I was pissed at her Friday. The ppl that I would normally tell what happened know what happened, so yeah, that's good enough for me. Doesn't really matter, but I was seriously pissed. I was worried about her, but all the worries turned into anger throughout the day, and it just built up until the end of the day when I blew up at her. Not a fun day, but I had the rest of the weekend, right? Saturday, Kim called me and invited me over, so I went. We went to Lissy's to see if she wanted to go to see Christmas With The Cranks (Crancies, LmFaO) but she couldn't. Then I got home and called Johnny to see if he wanted to go, but he wasn't home. I was gunna call Chris, but I figured that I wouldn't, b/c I didn't think he'd really wanna go anyway. Ah well, I think Kim's great to be around anyway, so it was fine. The movie had some pretty funny parts, and overall, I thought it was pretty good. We got home and called Lissy, and she wasn't too happy, being grounded and all. She got her parents to let us come over to her house, but I was already spending the night at Kim's and her mum said that she couldn't go, b/c it was too late by then. I started talking to Lissy and we got into another fight. She was like "I don't mean to be a bitch, but Kim did say that you could come here..and I'm not saying for you to ditch her, but you don't even sound like you care." I was like "Alissa..listen to yerself. It's not our fault. We'd come if we could..but I can't just ditch Kim.." Then we got it worked out and all. She had to go, so we started watching a DVD and fell asleep. I woke up to a phone call and it was my parents. Half awake, I sat up and was like "What?? Why are you calling me this fricken early?" my mum practically begged me to go to Eagle River. I finally agreed, and we were off. Of course I was in a bad mood, b/c I had to get up early and I went to bed so late. Well, it put me in a HELL of a lot worse of a mood when me and my bro were talking when we finally got to his house and then police showed up and took him away in handcuffs..I just started crying, and I didn't really know what was going on. I guess my mum thought he was suicidal and unstable and he was saying things to ppl, so she wanted him to be under 48-hour-watch. When I got home, Chris' number was on my caller ID, but by the time I called hime back, he didn't answer his phone, so I left a message and went to hang out with Lissy. My step-dad was like "Ya know..if he calls back, I'ma say that you like McDonald's food better than Culvers and that more guys call you from McDonald's and they're better looking.." It was really funny..least I thought so.. Monday: I got to math in second hour, and me and Bri were talking and then I started talking to Chris. Chris: Where were you yesterday? Me: Uhh..Eagle River..why? Chris: Cuz I called you. Me: I know. I called you back. Chris: I know. But by then it was too late.. Me: Why? What happened? Chris: I wanted to see a movie. Me: Who all was going? Chris: Just me. I ended up going with my brothers, though. Me: Well, sorry..I did call back though. Yeah, then we just kinda talked about the movie. I already saw it, and then he told me a story about him getting pulled over. He's more of a smart ass than I am, if that's possible, lol. ((Do you know how big a fine is for evading a police officer?)) *I wasn't evading anyone..* ((Well you sped up when I turned on my lights.)) *I didn't even see lights..* ((Oh, so you were just speeding anyway?)) *Yeah..I guess I was..* Niice. We lost all of our hockey games that night, though.. :( Tuesday: Sophmore meeting for our schedules and all..not real fun stuff, but I guess it's better than learning, lol. I think I did really good on my Chem test, which makes me very proud..then, I went to the JV and Varsity basketball games..we actually won Varsity! OMG, I was so happy! Wednesday: First hour, Zach and Mikey thought it was like..extremely funny to sign me outta my school account b4 I saved everything..lol. They took advantage of the fact that they knew I wouldn't get mad. Ah well. Me, Bri, and Chris were in a group for Math. Ha. That's great..we're the three most off-task, talkitive ppl in the class. Pretty much just sat there and talked the whole hour. Then at lunch, Adam and Kim helped me study for my US History test..thanx guys. I think I did good on that, too..probly b/c the whole test was three pages of two-column matching and then two essay questions. Not too hard. Johnny was making up a test in Pate's class, too. I was walking to my class and all of a sudden I hear "Hey! Erica!" and I look in the class and there's no one in the front desks..so I back up a little. No one in the middle desks either. I back up as far as I could and he's sitting in the back, and he's like "Hey..sup?" Haha, niiice. Umm, then there was play try-outs, but I didn't really want a part, b/c I would like to get alotta use outta my new snowboard, hehe. Afterwards, me and Lissy went to CCD to go caroling. The whole time, I felt like I was gunna pass out..but at least I got to wear a Santa hat, right? lol, then I called my parents and came home..yeah..then I wrote about the rest of last night, I think.. Today: First hour was really boring and I almost fell asleep so many times. Math wasn't too much better, either..I was sooo tired. I was talking to Bri about getting my season pass for snowboarding and then me and Chris were talking about Nordic. He got called down to a class meeting for scheduling and he's just like "I'll be back little one" lol, well guess who's a liar. I was gunna grab his stuff, but I didn't know if I'd see him or not, so I didn't. Then at lunch, I was like "Did ya get yer stuff outta the math room?" and he was like "Oh yeah..thanx for getting it for me, BITCH!" and then he just went off with that cocky smile. OOOH yeah! I burned him pretty bad the other day! I pinched his side, he pinched my arm and I hit him. He hit my locker and I was like "..woo, aren't we tough?" and he's like "Yeah! What would you do if yer face was there?" and I was like "Hmm..then my face would probly look like yer face.." lol, I feel kinda bad, b/c he hasn't come to my locker since, but it was pretty funny. Towards the end of today, I got a pass to the bathroom to get some toilet paper to blow my nose, and Mr. Adomavich signed it on the wrong day. Well I took it out to the hall anyway, and I showed it to Mr. Young. Usually I start talking to him right away, but he was talking to Mariah, a girl in my math class, so I just kept walking kinda slow, and he's like "We're happy today, aren't we?" I was like "Uhh?" and Mariah was like "You should see her in math, she never stops talking" and I was like "Yeah, I get kinda hyper, b/c there's really no one I don't like in math..so I get up and I'm kinda like a zombie, get to school and first hour drags on..then Math comes and I get hyper..then lunch is my second wind" and she was like "Yeah, I think lunch is everyone's second wind" and then Mr. Young was like "You should probly get back to class, though, huh?" and I was like "Uhh..nooo. I'll be like 'sorry Mr. Adomavich, but you signed my pass on the wrong day and Mr. Young questioned me a MIGHTY long time.." and Mr. Young was like "Try again" and I was like "Uhh..I had the craps?" Mariah cracked up..she was like "Oh! I'll have to remember that one! That's great!" and Mr. Young just looked at me, so I went back to class. After school, I had to make up a Spanish test, and I went into the class and said "Senora!" really loud in a funny voice as I turned the corner, and she wasn't in there, so just ppl making up other tests laughed at me. Then, we couldn't find my test, so I was looking through this folder as she was looking through another one, and I saw that someone had 66 points outta 65. I was like "Senora! This is my test! I recognize the score!" and she laughed. Then she started correcting Lissy's and she's like "You want the same score as Anita, here? 66?" and I was like "I knew I shoulda written my name in pen..I knew someone would falsely claim that test as their own.." It was really funny stuff. We thought we would actually win hockey tonight, too, b/c the team we played sucked. But maybe we suck extra? Cuz we lost..yeah, anyway, I'ma go chat it up with my mum for a while.
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× Grrrr-eat Week × [Dec. 15th, 2004|10:48 pm]
[Current Mood | exhausted]

well well..too tired to really write as much as has happened, but too much HAS happened for me to not write at least something..hmm, highlights..
Thanksgiving vacation was great. Kinda partied it up the whole vaca, and dyed my hair. Kim, Lissy, and Ashley Lowe dyed theirs too. All b/c Lissy wanted to dye hers red, it looked good, then we all kinda wanted to.
Talked to Karl, I think he's happy with Rachael, so I'm happy for him. I hope that works out how ever he wants it to. To be honest, though, I don't really believe that he told her he was still in love with me. Either way, though, I guess..doesn't really matter? I was writing down all the sweet things that every guy has done for me..lots of ppl fill up my freshman year, and I passed it all up for someone who's gone. Those ppl changed now, wether it's for better or worse.
So yeah. idk, really. This week has been a great one. I studied for two tests, both of which I think I aced, lol. I took a few chances and haven't yet been rejected in any ways, so that's a great feeling too. Anyway, I had to come home early tonight from caroling for CCD b/c I had a migrane, and I think it's probly from lack of sleep, so I'ma get going to bed..
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×We May Not Know What We're For, But We Know What We're Against× [Nov. 25th, 2004|12:38 am]
[Current Mood | hostile]
[Current Music |Tech N9ne- Slacker]

Lying. Deception. DRAMA!
It's shit. I hope it dies.
Anyway, yeah, today realised we've been lied to even more than we thought. Jason, I'm sorry, but you lie all the time. You said that you haven't even ever thought about drinking since you and Bri broke up? My ass. Then you said "Oh yeah, I had a few drinks at Nick Sieckert's, but I never really sat down and drank, it was a little of this and a little of that." Well lately, I've believed a lot more that I've been hearing from Matt, b/c I figure that when he answers the way he does he's not lying.
So yeah, I think that Jason is. Me and Matt were talking about our conversation with Jason that night at the hockey game about drinking and Matt just looked at me and laughed and shook his head a little. I was like "What?" and at first, he wouln't say..he was just like "Nothing, I don't wanna keep making this situation worse" and then finally, I got it outta him.
"Me and Jason have drank since him and Bri broke up. At least 2 or 3 times."
When me and Jason were talking about it, I said I found it hard to believe that he never even thought about doing it and he sat there and lied to me and Liss. Then Bri can say that Matt's a liar about today simply b/c Jason isn't? It wasn't even the fact that she believes her bf, b/c I guess I would to, but she was really bitchy about it. "Jason doesn't lie to me anymore, so yeah."
WELL GUESS WHAT! Everyone lies. Everyone is fake. Everyone deserves to die alone. Every once in a while, someone will do something, and they deserve hell for it.
If yer reading this, don't think "Ohhh, not me..I have NEVER had a time where I back-stabbed someone for approval from another person" b/c we have ALL done it. On purpose or by accident. So you can all go to hell. But we forgive you. B/c doesn't everyone get forgiveness? You think you have everything. Then you have nothing. That's the way it is. In the end, we all die alone.
Fuck off.
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°Go Figure° [Nov. 22nd, 2004|11:20 pm]
[Current Mood | bitchy]
[Current Music |Lil Scrappy- What The Fuck!]

Ok now, well after reading the live journals of others *cough, no names or anything, cough* umm, I almost was sorry..ALMOST. I felt bad, except for the fact that, Bri? wtf. If you think what you told Alissa was the truth!? Then you either have some kind of problem with yer head or you misunderstood what I said. You know what? You keep going with that, though. Whatever works for you, but talking shit about someone behind their back is NOT going to get other friends back. If anything, it will make you lose more, so just keep that in mind while yer in the process of untruthful FUCKING backstabbing. Thanx much. *fake smile* Later.
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×I'm Switzerland!× [Nov. 22nd, 2004|11:05 pm]
[Current Mood | annoyed]
[Current Music |Maria Mena- You're The Only One]

Wow..talk about WAY too much drama! JEEZ! lol, ok, this weekend was insane. Me, Liz, Chris, and Chris's little bro wanted to go techno-bowling. Sounds pretty fun, right? Well Linsay called Chris's cell almost every 5 minutes asking what was going on, and finally, I called her back. (The backround is that Linsay won't go anywhere without Amber, but when they're together, they get mad and leave in rage, b/c for 1) they have someone to leave with and 2) they think it'll make a statement. So not many ppl like them when they're together. Also, Amber is dating this guy named Casey, but they haven't talked for like..3 weeks? Well, he liked me b4 they started dating, so I don't think Amber really likes me anyway.) Well we wanted to call and not have them together, b/c we were sick of the drama..I'm sure y'all know how it is when ya just had enough. Well, I called Linsay, knowing that if Amber didn't go that Linsay wouldn't, so we were thinking of ways to get Amber to not to go and was like "Uhh, Linsay? Is Amber gunna go bowling with you if you go?" and she was like "Yeah..why?" and I was like "I..uh..feel uncomfortable around Amber" and she's like "Why!?" and I was like "Uhh..I'm in love with Casey!" I had to cover the phone, b/c Liz, Emily, and Chris all started laughing, so I did too. Then Linsay got all pissed and was like "Fine, then I'm not going! Bye." and hung up. Ever since that, all this crap has been going around like Casey is cheating on Amber with me, or I'm gunna steal him away from her. *rolls eyes* Yeah, of course I am! B/c I am SO totally like that. lol, and Aaron is Switzerland with Corey! He made that obvious. Said it enough times, lol. He meant he was nuetral? idk, Aaron, yer a crazy kid. Well an even more drama-ful day was today. At school, I heard all this talk about Bri talking smack about me. I admit that I said some stuff about her last Thursday or Friday..idk, w/e day I bitched her out for telling Alissa that I was talking about her behind her back. I was pissed. Well, today wasn't much better. I didn't say fuck all about her, besides asking Kim what they talked about when Kim said something about Bri talking to her. And then Adam went and said all this stuff like me and Kim were laughing when Eric called her a whore at lunch today, so Jason is pissed at us and to be honest, but ever since the hockey game when he said he couldn't pick a side b/c we're his friends and Bri is his gf..yeah, ever since then, I know he's been looking for a reason to take Bri's side and be mad at us, so all the more power to him if he wants to believe Adam, but we haven't been friends with Adam for a long time, so he would say that. Jason told me that Bri admitted to talking about me, Lissy, and Kim after she was mad at us, so no offense Bri, but you lie. Don't tell me that you haven't been talking about me when you have, b/c Jason, I would expect would have more lied to make it seem like you weren't, since he's yer bf, but he told me. Not to mention other ppl. I wrote Bri a note in drama telling her that I knew what she was saying and she's like "I don't say anything about you, and when someone else does, I stick up for you". Well lying about that doesn't make you look better either, b/c Lissy has yer lunch, and she kinda hears what the ppl say, and you didn't say anything in my defense, so w/e. So yeah, the vacation is gunna be a nice break from all this crap that's going on. I'm sick of it, and I'm not gunna deal with it anymore. I more or less forgave Tim tonight, b/c it didn't really seem like he did much anything, and the little that he did do, he appologized for, so I respect that. I haven't heard anything about him talking behind my back or anything, just all what he said to Kimbo, so yeah. I think I just need sleep or something..lol, my head feels like I just got off a roller coster. Oh yeah, Cait? Don't sweat the whole ordeal thing, b/c not only am I over it, but I'm sick of drama! lol, so yeah, cya later in the week!
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*Feeling Used* [Nov. 17th, 2004|09:24 pm]
[Current Mood | used]
[Current Music |Skillet- Savior]

Hmm. *thinks* Well, I was excited, b/c Cait is sposed to come for Thanksgiving weekend, and I thought it would be kool to have some friends over and all that and just kinda hang out, ya know? Well, I guess Cait was talking to Nick, and they planned on seeing each other the whole time. Even b4 it was for sure that she was coming, I think..so yeah, I'm not feeling to great. I thought it was gunna be fun to hang out with her and some of the girlies and then chill with the rest of y'all, but now idk. I feel kinda like they're just using me so that they can get together or something. But w/e, I guess..I'll get over it..
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-{ Sing It, Kimbo! }- [Nov. 13th, 2004|03:07 pm]
[Current Mood | anxious]
[Current Music |Busted- Can't Break Through]

Well after school yesterday, Dan drove me home, and b4 we went to my house, we stopped at his, and he showed it to me..it was really nice, too! It had the biggest fridge I've ever seen, lol. Umm, then we came back here, and when he left, I tried calling Chris Robins and he already had his phone off, b/c he was at work. Then I tried calling Liz's cell, but she had it off too. Then my mum told me that Lissy called from Kim's, so I called there, and we went to Appleton. We saw Cody Severson and his bro and Elizabeth Keys. There was a girl who looked at us funny, and Lissy said "What the hell are you looking at bitch!?" and then she just sat there staring at us with her mouth open in disgust..it made us all laugh. Then she walked over to us and started yelling, and she was a wigger, so we all just kinda laughed at everything she was saying. I also put some money down on a snowboard that I'm going to pick up today. I'm very excited. It's light purple with mountains on it and a unicorn. Last night, me and Lissy convinced Kimbo that she was talking in her sleep, and said all this stuff and sang Celine Dion..it was so great! She still doesn't know it's not true, lol. Ah well, we'll tell her next time we talk to her.Tonight, a few of us are going to see The Grudge. It should be good. But I'm out for now, gunna go see if I can talk my parents into going now.
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× My Birthday Weekend × [Nov. 7th, 2004|07:13 pm]
[Current Mood | touched]
[Current Music |The CD Timbo Burned For My Birthday]

All week, I kept thinking that my Sweet Sixteen was gunna suck so bad, b/c I wasn't having the greatest weekend, but when I got to school on Friday, I realised that much more how great my friends are..*sigh* I came to school a little later than I planned, but when I did get there, I turned down the hallway to my locker, and there was a MOB of ppl there and they all started singing Happy Birthday. That in itself made me smile, but on top of it, Bri made me a poster and hung it above my locker that said "Happy Birthday Erica! 16 at last! ♥ Brizzo, Lissy, & Kimbo!" and Lissy got me flowers and a balloon! ^.^ It made me sooo happy. Ok, then I open my locker to put all the cards and presents in, and there was roses taped to the inside all over from Cody! Then, in the back of it was the card he made me..he drew lotsa roses, 16 balloons, and it said "Happy 16th Birthday". That's probly one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me. (Besides, of course, all those times I was sick in 8th grade, and Lissy brought me "Get Well Soon" cards and chocolate, lol) Ok, well then Lissy had ANOTHER present, and y'all will never guess..DAZED AND CONFUSED! WOOP WOOP! Hellz yeah! *There's some crazy shit going on on a dollar bill..and it's green!* I got a card from Julia that was pretty funny, too. It was like "Gimme a F! Gimme a U!" and then you open it up and it goes "Gimme a N!" Umm, Dan gave me a card that was funny too..it was like "Happy Birthday to someone who's got it all-looks, brains, personality.." and on the inside, it says "..friends who will say anything to make you feel better.." lol, and then I thought I was gunna be late for class, so I said thank you to everyone and everyone left except Adam, and I was thinking "Great, he's gunna make funna me..just what I need today.." and he came up to me and handed me a card. I musta had a confused look on my face, but I went to give him a hug anyway, just b/c it was the thought that counted. He was like "Well you gotta open it first!" So I opened the envelope and read.. "If you think that just because it's yer birthday yer going to get a big, fancy card filled with all kinds of compliments.." And I kinda didn't wanna open it..I looked up at him and he was like "Ok, open it..go on" so I did, and started reading again.. "..Yer absolutely right! Happy Birthday to a smart, good-looking, funny, all around great person!" I looked back up at him, and I was so surprised, b/c lately he's been so mean to me. I hugged him and hurried off to my class. (Those weren't the only cards I got, but they were the best, lol) In math, Chris was like "I heard about what Cody did for ya..are you two going out?" I was like "Umm..no?" and he's like "Wow..I wouldn't spend that much money on you even if we were." lol, I was just kinda thinking "Yeah. You wouldn't, I know." But I didn't say anything. Then he ripped out the edges from his notebook and put them on my desk. I went to take them, and he was like "I'm not done yet!" so he like..kinda tied them together at the end, and I was like "Oh, that sure is gorgeous" and went to take them, intending to throw them away. He slapped my hand (a wussy slap, like he was gay or something..lol) and said "Hold on! I'm not done yet!" Then he wrote "Happy Birthday" on all of them, and ripped a little and folded a little, and claimed they were flowers. I put them on my agenda, and he stapled them to it. lol, yeah, it was dumb, but funny. Then at lunch, Kim got me and Lissy subs! And her and Lissy made me GERMAN CHOCOLATE CAKE! ^.^ And Cody got me ice cream cake! It was all so yummy! Then we saw the school musical, How To Succeed In Business Without Trying, and it was really good! I liked it a lot! Adam was mean to me all day after he gave me my card, though. Except at lunch, but even then he wasn't very nice, b/c Nick Sieckert was sitting with us. I musta been in a really good mood, lol, b/c I gave cake to both of them. Anyway, I got home, and Steph had sent me a present, I thought it was really nice of her. We don't talk too much now that we don't have any classes together. Thanx, though, Steph, that was really sweet. I'ma find out her birthday and send her something. Then I went to my dad's, partied it up Friday night, lol. Umm..actually, I fell asleep around midnight, but they woke me up when more ppl got there and all. It was fun, and I was really hyper-tired. Oh yeah! OMFG! Greg came in, and he came up to me, I thought he was gunna do that thing where you put yer hand over someone's mouth and pretend to kiss them? Well it was like that..without the hand! And I couldn't move, so I slapped him and pulled his hair! I was like..Haha, Greg..yer my friend and all..but..no. Then the rest of the weekend was awesome, just kinda chilled and all. I don't really remember lots of it, to be honest, lol. But today, we went to the bakery, b/c there was a sale. And me and Liz both wanted these oreo cakes, and there were 3 left, so I was just like "I'll just take all 3 of those..umm..a doughnut with the little peanutty sprinkle thingers..oh, and two cookies" and the lady was like "Is that all, and I was like "Yeah.." but my eyes were wandering, lol. I looked at this giant cupcake thinger, and it looked so good, and I was like "Is this German Chocolate?" The lady was like "Yes." and I said "Oh, then I'll have this too.." Then me and Liz were talking about what all was good there, and she was like "Oh those cupcakes over there are really good!" (This was after I paid for everything, we were just waiting for Chris to pay for his stuff) and I grabbed them and bought them, b/c I never had one b4. We must have looked like total fat-sos! I walked out carrying a box with our oreo cakes, the cupcakes, and my little German Chocolate cupcake-thing and Liz was carrying my bag with the doughnut and the cookies and Chris was carrying a box with cream puffs in it. Oh yeah! Chris got a Mustang! 1990! He traded it for a Banshee 4-wheeler..I was like "You suck!" He's like.."Wanna go for a birthday ride?" I'm like "Hellz yeah!" lol, then Saturday, while Liz was at work, we raced Emily..we kicked her ass, but I guess it's not much to brag about, b/c it was really no competition. Then we went to Andrew's house, who had told us that morning that he quit smoking. We went into his house, opened the door to his room, and smoke came outta it like fog..I was like "Wow" and Chris was like "I thought you quit smoking, dude?" and Andrew was like "I did quit smoking..ciggarrettes.." We left after talking to him for a little while, and then we burned insense in Chris's car, b/c he didn't want it to smell like pot, lol. So we went to Aaron's (not Bulchuck) house, and raced him too, then went and whipped some donuts in a parking lot. And Chris had his car going a little over 100..but he has no dash lights, so he didn't know exactly how fast, lol. Well I'ma go, b/c now I'm probly just babbling, but yeah, great birthday..and I'm 16! ^.^ Hellz yeah!
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¤ spin the plastic-bottle-dealy-type-milk ¤ [Nov. 4th, 2004|10:11 pm]
[Current Mood | tired]
[Current Music |Jack Off Jill- Love Song]

Well today was pretty interesting. Chris got a plastic-bottle-dealy-type-milk for lunch today, and he was spinning it going "Ok, this is who Dan gets"..."Ok, this is who Cody gets" and so on. Well it got to Adam, and he's like "Here's for Adam" and I knocked the bottle at the table and it pointed to a table of..well..unfortunate ppl..lol. And we couldn't stop laughing. Then Chris said "Ok, this is for that fat girl at the next table" and spun once again. Adam was kidding around and he was like "Land on me baby! Come on!" and I stopped it to land on him, and he went POSTAL! He picked up the bottle and chucked it at me..I was like..uhh? Ok? Other than that, today was good. I talked to Karl for about..2 hours? And we didn't fight about anything. I was very surprised, but very proud. Me and Kyle talked again! For the first time in a while..since maybe sometime last year? Cept for trick-or-treating, lol. WOOP WOOP! ((Not just a word)) *More than a feeling* I miss last year..it was so..easy? idk, but I love the ppl I hang out with now, specially Lissy, right sweetie? I love you to pieces! To BITS, even! Ok, I'm tired and I at least don't wanna look tired tomorrow at school, so I'ma get going, but I love y'all, and thanx for always being there..especially on my birthday! *wink*
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..:*Boys Still Suck*:.. [Nov. 3rd, 2004|10:16 pm]
[Current Mood | crushed]
[Current Music |Ryan Cabrera- True]

Got back from CCD a bit ago. It was actually pretty funny, we had to get in these groups, and me and Lissy and Katie were all in the pink group with some other freshmem and ppl from the other school that goes there. Well we had to think of the six top values of the U.S. and she said they could be good or bad. Well our group was just kidding around and stuff, and one of the freshmen was like "SEX! You guys, write sex!" so we wrote it, and then I just started making my own list on my little sheet of paper, and I put "Sex, drugs, alcohol, porn, and money". Alissa had a list of serious ones that were really good. And then everyone was like "Well who's is gunna get read when she asks?" and so she was like "Pink? What do you have for the first one?" and the freshman who said it b4 just yelled "Uhh..SEX!?" I was sitting there thinking "wow..and they think we're so innocent.." Oh yeah, and a bit after I was back, Cody Severson called to ask me what I wanted for my birthday..I felt very special that everyone knows it's my birthday..I still haven't told Lissy or Kim what I wanted for my birthday, and I have no idea what to tell Cody, so I decided to make a list or something and just maybe pass it around tomorrow..idk..tomorrow is my bro's birthday. But we got into a fight the other day. Idk really what happened, all I know is I was home sick with a migrane the other day, and I called him to yell, b/c he was being a dumbass (I think only a few ppl know the whole story, and I'm too tired to tell it, so yeah) and he yelled at me..said some pretty harsh things..came real close to getting our family in huge trouble. I helped out, it's all ok now, thank God. Umm, came home early today again with a migrane, and this birthday week has seemed..well, just bad. Karl was really mad at me for flirting with that dumb breadstick guy, but the same night, he took that damn Rachael girl to a party, took her home, and gave her a goodnight kiss..and he has the nerve to tell me that what I did was worse! GOD! I hate men, sometimes! He called me, Lissy, and Kim hoes..and made me feel horrible, and today, I found out that he's going out with her..yeah, you can bet I'm feeling VERY touched tonight! ×I told you that I was happy for you and, given the chance, I would lie again..× When I went back to school at the end of the day to pick up Kimbo and Lissy, I couldn't help myself, I just started sobbing. I felt so dumb, and everyone was standing around, giving me hugs, throwing out insults against Karl that only made me feel more naive and childish..threats. You name it. That's what came of my tears. Steve was probly the worst. Probly the only arguement that Steve can get in on is this one. He listened to me everyday that I needed to talk to someone who talks to me and Karl. And he was like "Well what a great birthday you must be having, talking to that selfish bastard.." The worst part was that I had no arguement. I don't have arguements to comments like that anymore. I hate the feeling that I got myself so deep into this, and there's nothing that I can do to get out. Karl said that he told her "He loved me" and she said "Tell Erica that I love her too!" and walked off or something..all I know is Karl doesn't get it. He doesn't know anything, and I'm sick of trying to tell him how it feels. I shouldn't have to put up with all this just b/c he still wants to talk to me and all that too, should I? That's not fair..and Steve's voice is ringing in my head..it is my birthday..it should be happy..and it's not. Oh yeah, Adam got pissed at me at lunch today too, b/c Bri's step-dad stomped off or something, and I said something to Kim about it, and Adam said that Bri's mum was being immature and he could see why Mike would stomp off, and I was like "You don't even know the situation, so shut the hell up, Adam" And he started rambling on, and I did my famous "Yeah, uh-huh, sure..oh yeah..sure..uh-huh..yeah" that everyone loves so much, lol. And he threw his butter and dinner roll at me..I was like "Uhh, woo?" and he's like "Keep up the sarcasm, you dumb bitch, and I'll throw my beans at you.." Me and Kim exchanged trying-not-to-laugh looks with everyone at the table, and finally I was like "Ok, I'ma stop, b/c that's a biiig threat..I wouldn't want beans on me.." and me and Kim went to dump our trays..idk about that kid, he's..different. Then I talked to Chris's step-bro, and Adam was like "He likes you, ya know" and I was like "Yeah? That's good for him" and Adam was like "Yeah, does that make you happy to know that you finally found someone who likes you?" AHAHA! Adam, no offense, but from what I remember, someone seemed to have "loved me" until I told him where to go. Yeah, that's right, Adam. You think yer all bad-ass? Just remember that there's a diff between "bad-ass" and "dumb-ass". lol, anyway, go ahead and give me shit when you read this, b/c if you so much as touch me again, it won't just be Dumbo on yer ass this time..you'll have a few others to deal with too. I need to go to bed, b/c I'll get another migrane otherwise, and that would be hell. Getting up early to do Lissy's hair, so I'm hoping that she'll help me with my hw. OH YEAH! I got really good grades too! Not as good as I used to get, but my GPA went up! And my worst grade was a B-! *dances* Ok, well I'm off. Oh yeah..2 days till my sweet 16! WOOP WOOP!
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"Hey there, Chris with two S's.." [Oct. 30th, 2004|11:11 pm]
[Current Mood | cranky]

11:11
Tonight was pretty funny. The Theater of Lost Souls was good..the two parts that really scared me was this guy came from behind a couch and followed me and Kim and wouldn't let us pass through him. Then, of course, there just HAD to be clowns! They scared the shit outta me! I was the first of us all crawling through this tube thinger, and I got close to the end and saw florescent pink and yellow polka dots..then I heard noses honking, so I kinda paused. Matt was right behind me, and he was pushing me, saying "Where's the clowns, Erica? Do you see the clowns? What do the clowns look like Erica? Do you hear em? Where's the clowns?" and I was like "SHUT UP!" and I got out, and I started screaming, half in fear, half to make them get away from me, and one got right up in my face and mocked my scream and started laughing and honking its nose..they had these sharp teeth and creepy eyes and noses..*shivers* Anyway..then we went to Fazolis! lol, it was fun. There was a breadstick guy, and he came out and I was like "Is there any way that we can get extra breadsticks?" and he was like "Yeah..you can have the rest of em in my basket, do you guys want all these?" and I was like "YEAH! Yer the greatest breadstick guy ever..I should tell yer manager that you deserve a raise.." *wink* lol, it was so great, and then he kept coming to our table and asking if we needed breadsticks or anything..His name was Chris S..but on his name-tag, it looked like "chriss" so at first I was like "Hey again..Chriss with two s's.." and then he was like "No my last name is Ssffsdaljkj" idk..it was something, lol. But then I was like "Hey, we might be leaving soon..is there any way that you could like, sneak us some breadsticks..lots of em? Like a box of em?" and he's like "Yeah, I'll be right back" and the next thing I know, he's coming back, carrying this huge ass overflowing box of em! I was like "Hellz yeah!" and we ate most of em, and his number was under them, I laughed so hard! But I'm back now, and Lissy and Kim are here..Bri is really mad at me, I guess, but idk. She's blaming this all on me that she didn't get to go to the Theater of Lost Souls, and it's not my fricken fault! Yeah, I am seriously sorry that she feels left out and even more sorry that I made her feel left out, but if it's anyone's fault, it's everyone's fault, you know? Idk..just..grr..
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"PDA'S ARE GROSS!" [Oct. 30th, 2004|05:08 pm]
[Current Mood | anxious]
[Current Music |Cursive- Am I Not Yours?]

Eh, lotsa stuff kinda happened, but pretty much nota at the same time..nothing too big that I remember..if I remember later, then I'll probly write about it, but yeah. We went to Nightmare last night! lol, that obviously happened. Umm, there was some really bitchy girl behind us that called me, Lissy, and Kimbo "retarted lesbians"..oh you can bet yer ass Lissy went off on her..she was like "Well yer a fuckin retarted slut-bitch-whore!" and the girl started making out with her bf, so Lissy turned around and yelled "YUCK, PDA'S ARE GROSS!" right in their ear. I couldn't stop laughing..and the best thing they could come up with was OH-SO PRICELESS! *sarcasm* That girl was like "YOU are gross!" LmFaO! Real mature..she was telling someone behind us about how she just turned 18..? SUUUURE! Then her bf was like "Isn't there a play they should be in? The Wizard of Oz?" And the girl goes "Are they even old enough?..OOOOH! Would you like some ICE with that burn!?" PA-LEASE! The last time I heard that was from my 6-year-old cousin! And that's not sarcasm, lol..I was like "Haha, would you like some ice for the wound yer about to get from her?" and Alissa was like "Yeah! I'll slit yer throat, bitch!" And all this surprised me, b/c Nightmare is kinda a churchy-ish thing, ya know? I guess not anymore..Oh yeah, and the night b4, me, Kim, and Lissy stayed at my house, and we did our hair like..some nameless few in our school who might read this someday or something, but frankly, their hair will always look like shit..y'all know who I'm talking about? Well we went to Movie Gallery with our hair like that..lol, it was great, we mocked them all night. Then we snuck out of my house to walk downtown and get vanilla ice cream to make malts..we ended up walking back to Kim's and getting it and coming back, but it was funny. Anyway Ben just went home a bit ago, and Cruel Intentions 3 was a really funny movie. Hehe. Least I enjoyed it. And we made malts! I know, I know..fun stuff, right? Then we watched the end of Blair Witch. Now I'm just waiting for Kim, Lissy, and Matt to get here to go to the Theater of Lost Souls. Fun stuff!
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-_- Greg.. -_- [Oct. 10th, 2004|11:47 am]
[Current Mood | bitchy]
[Current Music |Three Days Grace- Just Like You]

*LmFaO* When I got to Lissy's last night, it was later than she expected to get back, and when she called Greg, she was like "Sorry we were at Erica's getting blankets and then she had crisis, so that's why were late" which was the truth, but then the little ass (Greg..not Lissy, lol) had to go and say "When is Erica NOT having crisis!?" Ok, listen here, Greg. You cry like a little girl every night! And then you vent off on me like the little bitch you are! WTF! Then you call and appologize when you wanna bitch again and just say "Sorry, but if I didn't take it out on you, I woulda done something to myself.." HA! Talk about taking advantage of a friend! Well I hope yer happy, b/c you don't have me as a friend to take advantage of anymore! Ass. o_e
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°Homecoming Dance° [Oct. 10th, 2004|02:56 am]
[Current Mood | rejected]

lol, today was hectic. There was the game, then we stayed for the JV game too. When we got home, I just chilled for a while. Then Alissa came over for me to do her hair. It looked GREAT! ^.^ lol, then did my own hair (as good as I had time for, hehe) and Nick got here. We left for King's Table, not before, of course, getting our pictures taken by our oh-so-excited parents..*rolls eyes and giggles* Yeah, parents. *sigh* We met up with Lissy, Matt, Hanna, Melvin, Leah, and Mikey. It was a fun time. Then we went off to the dance. There, we met up with Kim, Tom, Bri, Tim, Boo, Julia, and Zach. They weren't with us, b/c Zach made reservations in Plover. I think Nick was a little mad at me for dancing with other guys, since he was my date. Sorry Nick. I danced with him most dances, but also with Tim for like..half a dance, Boo, Adam, and David. Alissa went off with Matt, so when I needed someone to talk to, she wasn't there..kinda made me a bit sad..but yeah, I guess that's the way it goes lately. Anywho, then it was over b4 I knew it. I'm home now to get some blankets and then me and Lissy are gunna head over to her house. Can you say AFTER PARTY!? lol, nah, jk. But it'll be fun.
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¤Homecoming Game¤ [Oct. 9th, 2004|01:37 am]
[Current Mood | confused]
[Current Music |Leanne Wolmack- Why They Call It Falling]

Ok, today was sucky and kick-ass all in the same day! First, for the kick-ass part! lol, we had shortened classes and a PEP RALLY! Yeah-AH! OH BAYBEE! lol, I went to most of Spanish..then got a pass to the nurses and just took the last lunch of the day. When I got home, I was in a fairly good mood. I went to meet my friends at DQ and we were gunna watch the parade, but we just stayed in there the whole time. It was me, Lissy, Matt, Bri, Adam, Nick, and Tim and Boo. Adam was being a jerk b/c Nick was there, and I was really sick of it. (Yep, you guessed it, it's the sucky parts now.) Then we left DQ to go to Bri's house for a bit. I was feeling very..hmm, I wanna say..irritable? We were making a movie, and it was really fun until Nick and Adam got there. Then, no matter what they were doing, it bugged me. Then we ate and rode to the game. Adam drove me and Lissy and Matt, and he wouldn't let me turn the station on his radio, or turn it up, or turn it down. Then he turned it off..I was like "Ok!?" Then we got there, and there was so much drama..everyone was sad, and it made me sad..then I was sad AND irritated, b/c of Nick and Adam AND (!) On top of it all..we were losing! I was hugging Tim and Boo, and Nick just came up to me and says "You are just acting sad so you can get hugs and feel special for once." Then I just started crying b/c of all the crap, along with all the crap from earlier in the week, and yeah. I was trying to hold it all back, b/c I didn't wanna be the new center of attention and I felt really dumb. Then Adam felt bad and he started talking to everyone else, and he offered to give us a ride to where Matt's parents were gunna pick us up. Alissa went with Matt's parents to get dropped off at her house to get ready to go to Josh Ellie's party and I rode with Adam. It really made me feel better to know how sorry he was for acting different around Nick and Christian..I mean, he felt horrible. We talked for a long time b4 I went inside, and then I called Lissy. We called Boo to get a ride to Josh's party and got there. I was having a pretty good time, and I went by the water. Boo, Mikey, Lissy, Tom, and Kim followed me. I looked over, and Chris was just lying there by the water, so I went over to him and I was like "Are you ok?" and he practically bit my head off b/c he wasn't having a good time, so I was like "Why are you even here then?" and he was like "I don't know..I'm leaving" as he got up..ok, no offense, but 1) It was time for me to go anyhow, and 2) I wasn't gunna stop him after he snapped at me. I went and told Boo that I was ready to go and started walking to his car as he went to get Tim and Lissy. I walked a little past Chris's car to go to Boo's car, and I heard "Ericaaa". I turned around and Chris said "Pop a squat.." gesturing to his car. I went around to the other side and got in and all these ppl said they had to get stuff outta his car. Then Mikey came and asked for a ride home. Chris was like "Sure" and looked at me and asked "Am I giving you a ride home too?" I was like "No..you just told me to pop a squat, so I did.." He was like "Oh, well I just thought you wanted to talk.." To make this extremely long story short, I ended up getting a ride home from him and walking in my house about a half hour late? Ah well, my mum said it was fine since it was homecoming weekend..she always says it's fine..well most of the time, anywho. When I come home 15 minutes late, I get yelled at..when I come home a half an hour late, it's fine..don't really understand that, but ah well. Gunna get going to bed though, got a soccer game tomorrow and then the rest of the day will be devoted to Homecoming, lol.
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